I’m sure this photo will be sexualized. I’m sure negative judgments will be made. I wouldn’t be surprised if this gets reported. Those are not my problems.
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I spent a long time hating my body, eating less than I should have, and trying to live up to the unrealistic standard of beauty I had constructed in my head by subconsciously comparing myself to every other female I saw. I’m lucky that I caught myself slipping early on and sought out help, but that’s not always the case. I am now finally able to see myself in a more positive light. I’ve found that the more time I spend naked and the more I dress to please myself instead of worrying about what others may think, the more comfortable I become. Yet I still find myself in front of the mirror putting together an outfit thinking “is this too slutty?” even though I’ve worn it a dozen times and know it’s fine. Getting dressed has become way more stressful than it should be, because I have to decide whether or not I have enough energy to put up with being honked at for wearing shorts when it’s 80+ degrees outside. I have personally experienced just about every form of sexual harassment. I’ve been shamed and told to cover myself so as not to distract my male classmates. I’ve been told that I shouldn’t get any more tattoos because “I’m too pretty.” I’ve been taken advantage of and then blamed for it. I’ve been told that, without saying a word, I was asking for it. NO ONE asks to be objectified. When you tell anyone - male or female - how to dress, or what they can and cannot do with their bodies, you are telling them that their body does not belong to them. I am taking back ownership of my body. I am celebrating the fact that it functions properly and I am treating it with respect. I am using it as a tool to create various forms of art. I will dress it and decorate it how I see fit and do with it what I please. It does not matter how much skin I choose to show, I am still not asking for it.